:: The Blurst of Times ::

:: 5.17.2004 ::

I am out of the loop. I am so far out of the loop that I'm not even sure if the loop exists and the loop is doubting that I survived this spring. Which I haven't yet.

Here's an analogy: I'm in the middle of an ocean on a cumbling lifeboat. There is a huge oceanliner on the horizon. That oceanliner might see me and might come rescue me. If that oceanliner rescues me, I will be dropped into the lap of luxury and my life will be grand. But the oceanliner is a long ways off. And I have done as much yelling as I possibly could. It might pass right by and never glance my way. It might see me and pass by anyway. To be honest, I have already watched several ships go by and gotten aboard none, though a lot of my floatmateshave felt that those ships were suitable for their passage. If that oceanliner passes me by, I will sink to the bottom of the ocean or at least will sink until the scavenging carnivores lurking in the ocean depths eat my withered and pale body.

To expalin: My lifeboat will last about four weeks. That's how long I have secured employment through a faculty member with the Indians. I will earn a decent wage and have a good place to live. The ship on the horizon is a firm in New York and possibly Chicago. So maybe there are two ships. But they are still a ways off. I plan on doing nothing but frisbee golf and work on my portfoio until those ships start to head my way.

A good book: Last night I read The Turk: The Life and Times of the Amazing Eighteenth Century Chess-Playing Machine (or some such title) by Tom Standage. And by last night, I mean I started it at 11.30 and read until 4 am, dispite that the power in the neighborhood went out for about two hours. I read the whole damn thing, it was that good. I have been inspired to two things. One - I will begin studying the game of chess and playing when I can. Two - I will begin studying physics, mechanics, and hydraulics in an attempt to gain a better understanding of working mechanisms. I have decided that no matter what my profession is, my vocation will always be a builder. So building I shall study.

"And the sun still shines above you when you're on the dark side of the street..."
:: Freddy F. at 1:47 PM [+] ::