:: The Blurst of Times ::

:: 4.30.2004 ::

Alright - enough of this. Sorry I've been slacking about writing lately, but things have been a little rough. But maybe an end is in sight - here's a quick run-through of everything I think about these days.

1) Studio: Yes, I will get done - and yes, I will graduate. There was some times that I had my doubts, but in this last week I think I cinched it. It will require a lot of work - long long hours and days on end - seven days to be exact, as things are pretty much due on May 6th, at 4pm. Do-able. Very. Just gotta keep to it.

2) Employment: I'm wavering between wanting to be a landscape architect and being a model builder. I'm wavering between hoping for the job in New York or the job in Topeka, but that is about at the stage I'm at - hoping. These things are out of my hands - they said they need time to make a decision now, so I have no choice but to wait.

3) Health: No, I'm not going to die. Probably. It hurts when I swallow and when I breath. But I can live with that - for a couple weeks anyway, until I'm past all this studio stuff and can start sleeping good hours again. The muscular system is feeling better and the nervous problems have not recurred since the original (horridly painful) incident. Bones: still strong. And I finally shaved - the first I've felt clean in two weeks.

4) Money (read: Bills and Boy, I hope I get a signing bonus.): Grim. I'm at the point where I cant afford to skimp on things - I need to eat, need to produce the portfolio and overnight it if necessary, need to buy markers to finish my projects, need to make tons of prints just to get it done, etc. How much does a good healthy kidney go for these days?

So that's the gist of it. As of a week ago I was losing in both my Fantasy Baseball Leagues (by "losing" I mean "dead fucking last" [I ought to change my teams names to DFL]). You'll hear from me in a week.

"You and I should get away for a while. I just wanna be alone with your smile..."
:: Freddy F. at 12:06 PM [+] ::